A weary crapy way to start my day!

I woke up by my phone… I got a message from the site where we get to know what school we have gotten into… And the message was that the second ingestion was ready!

I was seriously shaking when I got on my computer…

I logged on only to see that I still haven't gotten into the school that I want SO bad to go to!

I cried oh I cried, So broken :(

I'm now at the fourth place on the waiting list!

I cried for about an hour! I had to get up, I just couldn't lay in bed all day!

So I forced myself up, my back hurting so much but I knew that this was something that I needed to do.

I know that if it is meant to happen I just rally put it in Gods hands and just wait for it to happen when it is supposed to! I think it might be a test…

I have now a tattoo that says faith, witch reminds me that I cant loose faith in  God! And that he is helping me thru the rough times… I know that he has a plan for my life it is just some times So hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you feel SOO down and like nothing you ever do will ever be enough, because some one can/ will all ways be better than you!

SO I gave my self this day to feel sad and bumped out about it… It's like a sad ness pressing me down :(

But reality for this friday was that I had to take a shower, and meet Martine at 1.30!

So I barely got thru the shower crying a little + being afraid that I could collapse like I did the last time!

But I got thru! after my shower I went back to bed lust laying there drying in my towels…

Got some breakfast before I walked slowly down to the subway station!

I got to exchange tow books that I had bought for my self but there was this other book I wanted in stead! :)

You see I'm planing to use it as a memory-book :)

 We came home to my house and ate some lunch + listened to music!

 Around 4.30pm Casper came and the three of us just talked about our vocations :) (Marty had made a rule that we wouldn't talk about witch school we where going to this fall…)

I think we started making the pizza dough around 6. I actually made the tomato sauce myself :)

When hannah came a short while after that, we started getting the dough equally parted on two trays. It was kinda fun sins I had used to little of the flower so the dough was so sticky, Cazy really tried but he didn't make it and Hanny tock over :)

Marty set the table and when the pizza's where finished I tock the supplies that needed to be washed.

The pizzas turned out surprisingly good :) Even though we ended up to be only four, four seemed like a good amount of people :)

We laugh and had so much fun!

After dinner we sang sing star for about an hour :)

We had strawberries, ice cream, brownie, cinnamonroll's, candy and ships wile we started watching Never Say Never :)

Marty had to go home at 11 so she just got to watch the beginning, while Cazy had to go at 12 O'clock so he didn't get to see the end. Hanny and I followed him down to the buss before we watched the end of the movie :) (Hanny where sleeping over)

After the movie we talked for a while before we went tired to bed :)

Hope that you had a better start at your day than me!

❤God Bless You❤

❣Allot Of Love Izzy❣